Jan. 25th, 2013

  • 1:46 PM
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I have a few things to do today. I've already signed on (Job Seeker's Allowance, bleh) and done all the stuff required of me in that department - enough stuff for one day, anyway - so now I just need to tackle a ton of stuff on the creative side of things.
  1. Type six pages of my novel up
  2. Write another six pages of my novel
  3. One A3 drawing for Holly
That's easily doable. In fact, while I'm still waiting for Jason to get back, I can make a good start on typing up my novel now.

I may also need to do his mum a little favour regarding the funeral today, depending on when she wants it done. She'd like me to type up, format and print out the eulogy she's written/writing for granny. I know it doesn't sound like a hard job, but... wow. I'm actually terrified I'm going to muck it up. Like, I don't know if she wants it to look decorative or for it to be more readable (she requires glasses to read, I know that much, and I don't think she wants to be squinting on the lectern thingy in the church) or what.

I was just thinking maybe a slightly larger font (16 or 18, maybe?), 1.5 spaced so she can tell the lines apart easier and avoid stumbling. That's how I formatted my Prince's Trust Presentation Night speech so I wouldn't end up reading the same line again by accident. Maybe indent the first line of every paragraph... I dunno, maybe I'm thinking too hard about this. I just seriously do not want to mess it up.

Also, I'm amazed that she's trusting me with this. I mean, an eulogy is a very personal, sensitive thing, especially when it's for such a close member of the family. When words are brought together to make one they become immeasurably precious, I think, because of their purpose. This will be the most delicate writing task I'll have ever done. Wow.

Well, we'll see what Maria says anyway. Jason might bring the eulogy for me to sort out today, or she might need more time to work on it.

Other than that, the past few days have been pretty uneventful. I'm getting into the swing of finding a job again, and over the next week I'll be submitting my CV to a few jobsearch sites. There isn't a great deal on the Gov.uk website, to be honest, so I'm better off looking further afield as well. I've been playing a lot of Minecraft, and I've been writing a little bit as well. My novel's creeping along slowly, but slow progress is always better than no progress. It makes me feel much better to be busy!

Jan. 20th, 2013

  • 9:38 PM
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I've been feeling a bit down today due to yesterday's sad news. I haven't really been able to bring myself to do much except sit around and play Minecraft for hours just to take my mind off things.

Tomorrow I'm staying over at Jason's as usual, and I told him I'd like to go to the funeral, because I was really fond of his gran and I'd like to be there for him, and for his mum. It's still bugging me that I couldn't really do much yesterday, but he did say he'd rather be alone and try to get some sleep.

Jason went to bed at around 10 last night, just after our phone call, and finally fell asleep at half three. I went to bed at nearly four o'clock myself because I was just so tired, and even then it was hard to get to sleep.

I think I'll be okay, given time. This is different to my usual depressive episodes. I'm just sad that Irene passed away and regretful that I wasn't able to get to know her better, as well as worried about Jason, his Mum and, of course, his grandad.

So I haven't written at all today, though yesterday before Jason's text I managed four pages, and typed up about the same. In days to come I'm going to have to get cracking again on some serious work, but for now, definitely until the funeral, I won't be writing at all when I'm with Jason. I want to focus for a while on supporting him.

Hasta La Vista, 2012!

  • Jan. 1st, 2013 at 11:16 AM
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Right now, Jason, Nathan and Ashley are still in bed, Dad and I are the only ones up, and Thelma is bruxing and boggling at me from her cage. The New Year's celebrations last night were short-lived and rather peaceful. Obviously there were fireworks, but the bulk of them only lasted about fifteen minutes.

Yesterday was one of those days which started out pretty poorly but ended on a high note... )

I Need To Rant.

  • Dec. 10th, 2012 at 9:27 AM
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I don't know how I'm going to face my fiancé's brother today without exploding, ugh. He's such a selfish manchild. Found out today that his mum only went to the hospital on Wednesday after her stroke Tuesday - and he brought someone round while she was suffering the effects; I.e. speech impairment and weakened left side. Oh, and they stayed the night, too. And he came to the fucking pub quiz and made merry while his mum was in hospital. I am so fucking furious at him right now; and I was pissed off at him already for basically being a total sponge, not giving his mum any free time and letting her do everything for him.

This guy is 30 YEARS OLD. And he has his OWN FUCKING HOUSE. And he stays with his mum every day now, despite complaining about having no free time when she had no choice but to live with him, lets her do his washing, cooking, cleaning etc, generates massive fucking piles of dishes for her to do and expects her to get him up for college. Oh, did I mention he expects her to sleep on the small couch while he takes the big one because the small one "makes him ache"? She even admitted that he was stressing her out and I'll bet that he was a massive factor in her stroke.

I am livid. And I plan on having words with him. I'll be diplomatic, but as soon as he pulls any of his defensive I-have-the-right-to-be-here-it's-not-my-fault-I'm-the-victim bullshit, I'm gonna pull out the big guns. And I'm beyond the point now of caring what he thinks of me afterwards. I was worried that saying anything would have him brand me "the bitch my brother is going to marry" but to be honest he's driving me, Jason and his mum crazy, and I've learned all too well that what upsets you must be dealt with. I'm gonna tell him to pack up all his stuff and get out of the house.

Also, my inactivity this past month was due to NaNoWriMo. I managed 66k! Woo! My novel is currently 580 pages long and a grand total of 174000 words approximately. I'm planning to have it first-drafted and typed up by the end of April, and in the other 2013 NaNo events (Camp NaNoWriMo in June and August, and NaNoWriMo itself) I will be finishing 'The Chronicles of Stan' and shifting a hefty chunk of 'You Know You Got (No) Soul'.

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Further updates from the Jason Front... Marie has come back from the house saying that things are definitely over between her and Tom. Jason hopes she's not just saying that like the last few times.

When we were discussing it on Sunday morning, just after the event, Jason said it had been the worst incident they'd ever had - so maybe it was bad enough for Marie to finally realise that the vicious circle had to be broken. I hope so, and I hope they'll be alright.

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