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kelzadiddle) wrote2012-03-30 11:47 pm
kelzadiddle) wrote2012-03-30 11:47 pm
A Little Something I Forgot to Mention...
I haven't posted in a few days, but since my last entry I've decided that I'm definitely trying to recover too quickly. I have it in my head that I shouldn't be depressed/stressed for some reason – like I should just be satisfied with the life that I have. It's a mindset I've had for a long time; I want to appreciate what I've got so any ill feelings I may have are irrational and bad on my part.
Anyway, like![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
song_of_copper suggested, I'm going to take things slow. I'm going to just do everyday stuff for a while, and try not to pressure myself about making decisions, because if I do that I'll a) only get more stressed out, b) probably do something reckless or stupid and c) … well, I can't think of an option C, but when I do I'll let you all know.
I forgot to mention in my last post that I have sought a doctor's advice about my lack of periods since September. Twice, in fact, but I didn't have much time with the doctor in Ireland due to moving back and all she could do was rule out pregnancy by using a doppler ultrasound scan. Over here, I've been for a blood test and on Wednesday I went for a proper ultrasound, one that provides an actual image of what's going on.
Going to that appointment was bloody nerve-wracking. I was tired because I'd gotten up early and bricking myself because I was worried that I'd be given bad news – happily, I was worrying for nothing. My ovaries do look a bit bulky and polycystic, but it's perfectly treatable and doesn't mean that I'll be infertile in future. We're just waiting on blood results now because they need two out of three tests to indicate PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome); a blood test, an ultrasound and any evidence of physical changes. I've put on a bit of weight and I've had pains and cramps around my ovaries, which are the immediately obvious symptoms.
So that's my mind at ease, and Jason's as well. He was understandably worried. Even though it isn't confirmed, all the signs are pointing at PCOS, and I'm glad that at least it doesn't seem to be anything very serious. I was actually expecting the worst of that appointment.
I've done a bit of reading on PCOS, and while it isn't curable, it is manageable, with drugs to maintain hormones and periods, plus weight loss. Basically, a diet and regular exercise. I'm actually eating quite well as it is, but I do need to exercise more. Many people who've written about their experiences with PCOS found that diets and exercise helped when it came to maintaining their symptoms and conceiving. Since a family is in my life plan, I'd best get my walking shoes on! I've dug out an empty notepad to start a food and exercise diary in, just to keep track on how I'm doing.
I've got to prepare myself, though, as in years to come I may have difficulty conceiving. I might even have a few miscarriages, and that would be the worst thing ever. Thankfully I have supportive friends and family, and so does Jason. Hopefully we won't have to rely on them, though.
Anyway. Jason finished his work placement for good on Wednesday, came to mine and I've just seen him off. Having him here is always brilliant; it's like I can't be stressed when he's around. There's no drama, we can have a laugh and just do normal things. Usually, we play Skyrim. Or Jason plays Skyrim while I'm sat next to him, drawing. This is pretty much how the last three days have been, and today we made ourselves Thai red curry with chicken and rice. Oh my god, it was delicious. Look at me! I can cook! :D
I won't be seeing him now until next Wednesday because on Monday he's going to Dave's place in Salford, while it's the Easter holidays. The days should pass soon enough, though, because I'm going to be busy. Tomorrow I'm seeing Laura in town, which will hopefully be a painless process after we've seemingly smoothed things over, and on Monday-Tuesday I'm sleeping over at Holly's, with a trip to the Trafford Centre on Monday. Sunday I'll have to myself, and I think I'll use it to sit in bed and finish off Ernest Hemingway's Fiesta: The Sun Also Rises.
I'll just round this off by thanking everybody for their sweet comments on my last entry :) You guys are awesome and I don't know what I'd do without you all sometimes <3
Ooh, about the art I've been working on... I'll post it tomorrow. For now, SLEEEEEEP.
Anyway, like
song_of_copper suggested, I'm going to take things slow. I'm going to just do everyday stuff for a while, and try not to pressure myself about making decisions, because if I do that I'll a) only get more stressed out, b) probably do something reckless or stupid and c) … well, I can't think of an option C, but when I do I'll let you all know.
I forgot to mention in my last post that I have sought a doctor's advice about my lack of periods since September. Twice, in fact, but I didn't have much time with the doctor in Ireland due to moving back and all she could do was rule out pregnancy by using a doppler ultrasound scan. Over here, I've been for a blood test and on Wednesday I went for a proper ultrasound, one that provides an actual image of what's going on.
Going to that appointment was bloody nerve-wracking. I was tired because I'd gotten up early and bricking myself because I was worried that I'd be given bad news – happily, I was worrying for nothing. My ovaries do look a bit bulky and polycystic, but it's perfectly treatable and doesn't mean that I'll be infertile in future. We're just waiting on blood results now because they need two out of three tests to indicate PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome); a blood test, an ultrasound and any evidence of physical changes. I've put on a bit of weight and I've had pains and cramps around my ovaries, which are the immediately obvious symptoms.
So that's my mind at ease, and Jason's as well. He was understandably worried. Even though it isn't confirmed, all the signs are pointing at PCOS, and I'm glad that at least it doesn't seem to be anything very serious. I was actually expecting the worst of that appointment.
I've done a bit of reading on PCOS, and while it isn't curable, it is manageable, with drugs to maintain hormones and periods, plus weight loss. Basically, a diet and regular exercise. I'm actually eating quite well as it is, but I do need to exercise more. Many people who've written about their experiences with PCOS found that diets and exercise helped when it came to maintaining their symptoms and conceiving. Since a family is in my life plan, I'd best get my walking shoes on! I've dug out an empty notepad to start a food and exercise diary in, just to keep track on how I'm doing.
I've got to prepare myself, though, as in years to come I may have difficulty conceiving. I might even have a few miscarriages, and that would be the worst thing ever. Thankfully I have supportive friends and family, and so does Jason. Hopefully we won't have to rely on them, though.
Anyway. Jason finished his work placement for good on Wednesday, came to mine and I've just seen him off. Having him here is always brilliant; it's like I can't be stressed when he's around. There's no drama, we can have a laugh and just do normal things. Usually, we play Skyrim. Or Jason plays Skyrim while I'm sat next to him, drawing. This is pretty much how the last three days have been, and today we made ourselves Thai red curry with chicken and rice. Oh my god, it was delicious. Look at me! I can cook! :D
I won't be seeing him now until next Wednesday because on Monday he's going to Dave's place in Salford, while it's the Easter holidays. The days should pass soon enough, though, because I'm going to be busy. Tomorrow I'm seeing Laura in town, which will hopefully be a painless process after we've seemingly smoothed things over, and on Monday-Tuesday I'm sleeping over at Holly's, with a trip to the Trafford Centre on Monday. Sunday I'll have to myself, and I think I'll use it to sit in bed and finish off Ernest Hemingway's Fiesta: The Sun Also Rises.
I'll just round this off by thanking everybody for their sweet comments on my last entry :) You guys are awesome and I don't know what I'd do without you all sometimes <3
Ooh, about the art I've been working on... I'll post it tomorrow. For now, SLEEEEEEP.
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Now you know (bar the confirmation) what is causing your symptoms, and that it's something that's at least partially controllable, that must be a relief to you and Jason. Better in some ways than getting inconclusive/negative results and still having to put up with symptoms and worries. And having a concrete reason to eat well and exercise will hopefully make it easier to do (rather than the generic reasons everyone has to do those things!). :-)
Look after yourself - everyone who reads your journal is rooting for you, I'm certain! <3