Then, last night, I was woken up by the sound of heavy rain, which was really weird considering the snow we'd been stuck with for the past week or so. It's all gone this morning, and it's definitely feeling milder out there. About bloody time as well; it's nearly February!
( Also, I think I may have spontaneously developed tinnitus... )
( Trigger warning: talk about depression, suicide etc )
For those who haven't yet clicked the cut, don't worry, I'm not going to commit suicide. Considering I'm a coward, and that I have friends, family, a fiance and a novel to write, suicide would be pretty illogical for me.
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What have I been doing these past three months, you ask? After the horrible ol' business that was - er, is - 2012, I've just been recovering, trying to get over my depression, and getting my life back on track. I did keep a non-Internet diary for a little while, which I will probably type up and post here backdated to fill in the gaps, and I have a Tumblr for when I really needed to rant or post cute pictures of my rats... but after nearly six years of LiveJournal, I guess Tumblr and my diary weren't enough.
( Summary of my last three months under the cut for your convenience... )
And... that's pretty much it. I think. These three months have been pretty uneventful otherwise; I've just been going to pub quizzes, chilling out with Jason, playing the XBox and having moodswings. Hopefully I can get more active on here again, because I love my LJ too much to let it fade away. And I love you guys, of course. The time I've been away I've missed you all a lot <3
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( Mainly talk about my missing periods, doctor's appointments, how I need to live healthily etc... )
I'll just round this off by thanking everybody for their sweet comments on my last entry :) You guys are awesome and I don't know what I'd do without you all sometimes <3
Ooh, about the art I've been working on... I'll post it tomorrow. For now, SLEEEEEEP.
I won't lie; I was feeling very nervous as I filled the form in, drank and waited. Even more so when I learned that they take almost a pint of blood; what is that, almost an eighth? I didn't say a great deal to Jason, either; I felt like I was dreaming and I was lost in my own thoughts of how I'd feel afterwards, would I pass out and would it be painful?
The idea of having some of my blood removed freaked me a little. But then I calmed myself by looking back to The Prince's Trust, when I did the abseil. I was a million times more terrified then. Giving blood was peanuts compared to an abseil!
( And then they called me in... (Warning for squeamish people?) )
- Music:My Guitar Wants to Kill Your Mama - Frank Zappa
KELZA sits with JASON, holding his left hand in her right, her own left arm bare on the table next to her. A NURSE presses cotton wool against her arm where blood has recently been taken. A stern DOCTOR holds a blood sample, eyeing it with disapproval.
( And the good doctor continued... )
- Music:Dirty Love - Frank Zappa
This week is set to be a fairly interesting one, actually. It got off to a good start in that I was able to stay over at Jason's - more on my use of the word 'able' in that sentence later. Tonight I'm going to be giving blood and on Friday I'll be going to a charity paranormal night, getting in free as I'm a reporter. I'll be live tweeting from the night itself and writing an extensive account of the freaky goings-on. If you're a fan of that kind of thing, watch this space!
The event will be run by UK Ghost Tours, and Para-Project will also be attending; if you've ever seen 'Spooks School' on the telly you'll be familiar with them. All funds raised will be donated to Cheshire Search and Rescue, who cover a vast area - despite their title, I believe they attend incidents all over the North West, St Helens included, and are a vital service to whom many owe their lives.
I'll be doing this event on my own. Jason, at first, grudgingly (and I mean really grudgingly; he took some persuasion!) agreed to come with me, but it was obvious that he really wasn't happy with it - he did confess that he wasn't a fan of the paranormal. At first I'll admit that I thought it was a bit silly. I didn't think he was the type to even believe in that kind of stuff. But it turns out it runs a wee bit deeper than that.
Okay, I'll warn you now. I'm going to go off on a bit of a tangent here. Just so you know.
( Said tangent is under the cut... )