I'm really sorry, guys; I feel as though all I do on here now is rant about how shitty I'm feeling. The truth is that I've been having a couple of really bad days; days where I absolutely loathe myself for no reason, and consequently doubt why anyone would give a crap about me or anything I have to say. Deep down I know there's little logic or reason behind how I'm feeling, but depression sucks and has no need for reasons so... yeah. I feel like shit right now.

( Trigger warning: talk about depression, suicide etc )

For those who haven't yet clicked the cut, don't worry, I'm not going to commit suicide. Considering I'm a coward, and that I have friends, family, a fiance and a novel to write, suicide would be pretty illogical for me.